Needing Love and Support!

So much on my mind tonight, I just need to get it off my chest in no particular order because that is how my mind works. Gotta love it!
First of all I am worried about my daughter. My sweet and innocent little girl who is now a 14 year old teenager dealing with depression and a mood disorder that causes her to cut. She has cut her arms and legs to the point I cannot even fathom. Thankfully the cuts have not been too deep that they require stitches, but she will have scaring for the rest of her life. She struggles in school, not with grades (she is an A/B student), but socially. She doesn't have any friends, only a couple people she "socializes" with, but they are bad news anyways. She tries anything to fit in and was recently suspended until futher notice pending a meeting at the school which is tomorrow.
The above brings me to point two. The meeting. I have to meet with the principal, superintendent, my daughter, and her dad (of which I do not have much good to say about). I deal with my own moods on a daily basis and all I can do is pray that this meeting will go well, I will be able to handle it, and my daughter will be able to return to school this year.
Point number three, we are going on a family vacation to Tennessee in two weeks. My youngest two kids do not get along and it is going to be an eight hour drive. Am I crazy? What was I thinking? I am so worried they are going to fight and ruin the trip for everyone. Not to mention I have a hard enough time trusting my brain to behave that I worry I will worry the trip for everyone.
I cannot stand all this stuff on my mind! This all seems like some heavy stuff for me. On top of the heavy stuff I have my every day problems I worry about which are too many to list, so I won't bore you with the details. I have to get through all this and I have to remember to reach out for support and take care of myself somewhere along this rough time ahead!
SO thanks for taking the time to read this and I would greatly appreciate some love and support while I go through these trials!

Keep Doing What Your'e Doing

The sun shines today, it is cold, but the sun is still shining! I have been in "remission" for nine days. I can hardly believe it because it has been a very long time since I have felt this good. One thing I have to remember is that this is usually the time when I quit taking care of myself and start living for everyone else.
I did this the other day. It was a busy day of doctor's appointments and children's needs and before I knew it the day was done and it was about time for bed. I started to feel extremely anxious, telling myself I needed more time in my day because I had forgotten to care for myself. I ended up having to take a Clonopin to calm myself down and went to bed.
So how do we take care of ourselves when we really feel on top of our game? When our mind is finally settled down and we can actually find happiness throughout our day? That is the big question, but the answer is simple. Do what we would do if we were feeling unstable, depressed, or manic. We keep fighting, learning, listening, and talking.
If you would normally sleep when you are depressed then take a shorter nap even when you are not depressed. If you would normally blog about your feelings when they are "off" then blog about your feelings when they are stable. If you normally use coping skills to get you through your days then research new coping skills and keep them fresh and interesting.
Just a few reminders to yourself throughout the day will keep you on your toes for when your mood decides to start bouncing again. Little tricks, like trying to keep the same routines can really help you keep yourself from becoming bombarded when you are feeling good! So take some time out today just for you, do something you enjoy, and make yourself smile!